Top 5 of 2011

I'm sure more than just 5 awesome things happened to me this year, but of the top of my head, these are the highs (in no particular order).

1. Inksight – Malaysian Today – 15,000 copies nationwide.

2. Tattoo – In all our imperfections, we found ourselves.

3. Langkawi – Holiday – capscalsdodos.

4. T4YP – FSD + Singapore + Much Ado.

5. Falling in mutual weirdness with Aidan Salman.

Yeap, those seem like a good five. But… it doesn't feel right… Oh, I know why!

There isn't a specific event here, but I think my girls warrant a mention. The amount of trouble I would be in without them!

So.

6. (Still) Being best friends with Rathika, Fatima and Kate.

Because they really do mean that much to me.

Oh, also:

7. Having my first pukefest birthday… well, I don't think it's a high, but it was an experience nonetheless.

Oh, oh, oh and:

8. Picking the right vices. Dropping the ciggs and  cutting off booze.

…

And since I'm on a roll and just two short of a Top 10 -

9. Stage Managing a show (for once) without Chris Ling holding my hand the whole way through. ACHIEVEMENT!

10. Performing/Surviving Short + Sweet.

So my Top 5 of 2011 is apparently a Top 10. Little victories and grand triumphs are important. Ultimately, these things shape who you are.

2011,

goodbye and thank you for the lessons and the memories.

There's this bridge.

It's walking distance from my place.

It's frightfully close by.

Noise.

So much noise in my head. It's the sound of words being suppressed. Of voices being muffled by some form of barrier. An immaterial barrier, of course.

It's all my fault.

I feel as if there's a tug of war taking place in my head. The negative is pulling and the positive is just short of the middle divider.

A Bit of Me.

I used to dream of a white wedding. In the garden. Well, a garden, like the ones with tall hedges for privacy and topiaries all around. I'd be wearing an embroidered white wedding dress with a long train and a lacey veil.

I used to dream really big. But tonight I was thinking about it all and I realise all that isn't important. It's nice and pretty to think of but it's not necessary. Why an elaborate wedding? Who would I even invite to it?

Registration followed by a day with family and my closest friends… yes, that sounds lovely. And affordable.

The gimmicks never matter, Belinda. Happiness doesn't depend on a white wedding. Happiness depends on you.