Confused.

I’m pretty patient (or so I’d like to think). Ok, maybe not patient, but I can tolerate quite a bit. It’s the lapse of basic consideration for others which I just cannot and won’t stand for. That and fucktards.

I’ve been bitching about this stupid peeve the whole day to anyone who would (and wouldn’t) listen. And for that reason, I’ll not go into details here. Let’s just say I was so mad, my bitch face kinda just burst through and that kinda met my bitch-quota for the day.

ANYWAY. On to other things. I finally began college again. My God, I don’t think I could handle another one month long break. It drove me to the brink of insanity. But the break was good, mostly. I needed the time to get some things into perspective. It’s all better now.

Also, as I’m prepping this post now, I am munching on some Lindt chocolate. And I’m also thinking a lot about Valentine’s day. And I’m really confused because mix signals do that to a person.

I’m going back to Tumblr-ing. I don’t want to analyze things now.

PS: I wish you’d apologize.

Hop to it then.

If you hate pining and whining, best to not read this post.

Ok. So I’ve been feeling like crap and worse. I’m quite tired of not knowing exactly what I’m aiming for, disappointed that some of my friendships have been falling apart and really annoyed at how tired I am of feeling lonely.

I can’t make up my mind ‘cause one minute I don’t give two fucks if I have to cut ties and the next I’m doing everything I can to mend things and get things back to normal.  And and and I find that at first I’m interested and two seconds later I give you the cold shoulder. Fuck. I’m a mess. I gotta sort my shit out. It’s just the first friggin’ month of 2011 and already I feel like smashing in somebody’s head.

Ok and I’ll be really pissed if I have to spend fucking Valentine’s Day alone again. I don’t care if I have to spend it with a friend even, I'm just really tired of the loneliness. Call me desperate, pathetic or whatever, this is how I feel and I should at least be free to express it. I don’t have control of much, but I know this is one thing that no one can force me to change.

You know, I just miss having someone to care for and having someone who cares for me. You can say I have my friends who care, and yes they do, but you and I both know they’re just two different kinds of care.

Oh, gosh honestly. I’m tired of being alone and bitter and mad. Please let this all change. Just somehow change.

Tumbling and Tweeting.

Okay, so I realise I’ve been a bit slow on updating the blog and all, and here’s the reason why: my life is kinda ‘meh’ now. Still on college break, so there’s not much to say. I’ve spent most of my time on Tumblr and Twitter and there’s really not much else to be said.

Oh, but the bestie and I are going to start baking on a fortnightly basis or something. We tried already a few times, and so far, we’ve done quite okay. I wanna make an apple pie next. nomnomnom. maybe I’ll bake one the day before college starts. nomnomnom. Then I can bring some pie to class! NOMNOMNOM.

Okay, I’m going back to stalking trolling tumbling now.

I HAVE SO MUCH OF A LIFE, LIKE OH MY GOD, I KNOW RIGHT?

Yeah, okay, tata!

Hello 2011, I think we’ll get along just fine.

So, I didn’t exactly kick off 2011 in glamorous fashion but something is telling me it’s going to be a great year.

Tomorrow (or should I say today??) is going to be a great day. AND YOU KNOW WHYYYY? Because I’m seeing my girls at college :))))) I haven’t seen them in almost a month. Okay, 3 weeks if you’re fickle about it, but yeah; 3 WEEKS IS A REALLY LONG TIME!

Anyway, I can’t wait to see them. Really. It’s probably the highlight of my past two weeks or something. Honest. That, and also I’m super hyper now, so maybe everything else that happened before this just isn’t processing, you know.

I want to talk about my New Year’s resolution, but this is kinda ish ish ishhhh part of the little something I prepared for my girls. After I give them their “gifts”, I promiseeee to blog about it. Because I’m really excited about it. AND YOU KNOW WHYYYY? Because this resolution of mine involves me spending more time with my best friend in the whole wide world, Joyee :)))) Oh my God; my heart is really just overflowing with love today now isn’t it. Slut with a big heart, hmm Ratata?

Heh, I’m misty-eyed :) Ok, I’ve been semi-misty-eyed since I started writing this post actually. I love these people very much, despite the little things that sometimes ruffle our feathers.

Ah, my photobook files have just been successfully copied to the CD. That’s my cue to hit the hay. I can’t wait to wake up tomorrow! (And I rarely say that if it requires me getting up before noon, so you know this means something) :D

Night!