Give it time.

So. What are you going to do, Belinda?

Are you going to continue pretending or are you going to come clean? Coming clean seems like the best option but right now I can't see much good out of doing anything. People will say the same things and as much as you don't want to care, you know you will. It will affect you. You will feel weak. You will feel like a loser, a child. You don't want to feel like that, do you?

The question remains. What to do next?

You cannot deny that you've been feeling a bit better. It's easier and simpler now for you to get lost in laughter and cheer. You haven't forgotten though because when you're alone, your mind still brings you back to where you left off. But around people now, you can be somewhat happy okay.

It's unfortunate then that what matters most is you being comfortable all by yourself and you are not there yet, Belinda. Not yet.