Oh My God! opens tonight.

Oh my god.
tonight. tonight. tonight. TONIGHT.

i can't believe that after so long
the time is finally here. the stage.
i've been waiting for tonight for a long time,
but now that it's finally here,
i'm really afraid.

i remember watching my first play, Ubu Roi,
when i was about 10years old.
my then drama teacher Jerrica Lai was acting in it.
though i didn't really understand much of the play
'cause it was very mature,
i remember being so amazed by what i saw.
the play was like a perfectly oiled machine.
the energy that every one character brought to the play
was in sync and brought the whole scene to life.
honestly, it was amazing to me how those people on stage
could compliment one another so fittingly.

and just sitting there, i felt like each character
was telling me a personal story.
like they were talking to me and ME alone.
that's the way a play should be i guess.
it should make the audience feel like they're part of it.

since then, i've wanted to be on stage.
a REAL stage. not the ones we have in school.
i always thought that with my background,
that type of thrill would be beyond my reach.
but here i am, less than 12hours away.
its not what i imagined. that i'd be chilly all over.
but i am still afraid. afraid that this will be my only chance.
after Oh My God! comes to an end this Sunday,
there won't be anymore lines for me to learn.

i'll be back to who i was before all this.
on my own, just hoping and praying that
i'll get another chance.

i'm going to miss the stage
and the people on, behind and around it
very, very much.