Screwed Over

Naturally, most people would see the phrase
"you're one of the few people i trust enough to confide in"
as another way of someone saying
"i trust that you won't blab this to anyone else".

and by anyone, i mean ANYONE.
whether its your best mate, sister, or even your mother.
you do NOT utter even a silent syllable.

the best friend rule:
never EVER expose the other's secret.

unfortunately some people don't get this.
they think that confiding in someone
who is COMPLETELY unrelated, like their MOM,
is acceptable for the very reason that she
wouldn't go around broadcasting it anyway.

*buzzer* WRONG!

recently i got into a huge shouting match with my beloved aunt.
why? because she said she heard something from my besties' MOM.
part of what my aunt heard was true, but most of it was bullsh*t.
and of course when i tried to tell her that it was bullsh*t, she didn't believe me.

now i got upset, obviously.
one, cos my bestie could actually betray my trust just like that.
two, cos i don't know whether she made up the extra bits or her mom misheard.
and three, cos i don't know how many other times she's gone behind my back.

the third reason is probably the worst.
that's what made my tears and fury uncontrollable.
best friends wouldn't do such things.
i'm not saying i'm the perfect pal,
but i can PROMISE you that i never betrayed her that way.
it just really sucks because i really have never trusted anyone more than her,
no matter how cliche that sounds.

i won't ever be able to mention her name in front of my family
without feeling shame and rage boil through my system.

now i know how dangerous trust can be.