Karma is a bitch. Ok fine; I won’t rope karma into all of this. THE GALAXY is a bitch. It happened again. Stupid jinxes. You always mess me up.
Yes. I’ve more or less lost the war. But as my button badge proclaims…fuck it.
Maybe you don’t know yet. You aren’t aware of all the stuffffff I’m going through. Probably. Though it kinda doesn’t make sense. I mean, obviously I wouldn’t do even half the things I’ve done for you if I only regarded you a friend. Come on; would you get up that early for a friend if it wasn’t an emergency and if you’d only had 5 hours of sleep the night before?
But you know what; it almost doesn’t matter anyway because you just don’t see me that way. And I was gonna ask you to prom, too. I feel pretty stupid for even thinking vaguely that you would say yes. I mean, I’m just me after all. And she’s… well, she’s all that. I don’t blame you for crowning me with second place; it’s a real guy thing to do anyway, isn’t it?
I’m vowing to not shed any tears. It’s not that you’re not worth it… I just don’t see the point anymore; no matter how many teardrops stain my pillowcase, it’s going to count for naught in the end. I’ll come clean and direct with you someday…
Pity that someday often leads to never.
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