Me, Me, Me.

See, I’m not doing this for you okay. I’m doing it for me, because if I don’t, I’m going to lose my fucking mind. I cannot afford to just drop the ball every time you are around. Do you understand? This insanity has to stop. I cannot go on like this. It’s unhealthy and that’s to say the least. Let’s just choose to forget that this thing we have is toxic.

Yes, I am tired of picking up the slack. I am tired of chasing you. I am tired of waiting for you to reciprocate. I am done.

And I know it’s not your fault and you never consented to this. Yes, you never gave me permission to do all that I’ve done for you and you never asked for this. But I’m telling you that I couldn’t help it. You were just there and I was drawn to you because of all you are. And yes, I am to blame for the mess I’ve made, I get it.

I’m sorry for making you feel victimised here. I just, I need to get you out of my system. Because if I don’t, I’ll never move on. I’m going to stop all this. For me and for you. But I love you okay. ARGH WHY IS THIS SO PAINFUL.

I promise you, that time away will do us good. You will fade into the background. And this is just what I need. Just time to think.

I am done.